Standing In The Need of Prayer

It was late October when I had my life-altering epiphany. Here I am coming up on three months later. I've made great strides. And I've taken steps backwards.

I feel like I've lost what little support-network I have. Perhaps I don't feel entitled to demanding people's attention when I most desperately need it. When I feel myself being pulled into activities and thought processes I dread being pulled into again - I don't reach out. I don't feel like I have the right to. I feel like I must wait for people to check-up on me. And if they do, instead of saying 'I need help', I try and say 'Look at what I've done! Isn't this wonderful?'

I just don't know anymore. Its so hard to rely on myself in this when I don't know who I am anymore. Maybe I'm just burnt out? Maybe this is normal. Maybe this is impossible...