Autumn & Me

Last night, I spoke of the moment on the airplane where I was reborn. I don't know if you've ever experienced this or not, but I was looking out over miles and miles of beautiful white clouds. The sky above me was blue. The sun was shining. And through the cracks in the clouds I was beholding the awesome splendor of God's beautiful creation. At that very moment, a song began to play. And as I listened to the words, I knew that coincidence played no part in the startling reality the words awoke me to. Its a beautiful song that I do not know the name to. It is a bonus track on the album Girl Next Door by Saving Jane. It is song acapella. And it is beautiful. It holds such truth in regards to my plight. Below are the lyrics.

I've been calling and calling for you
But you answer and I shut my mouth
I've been searching and searching for you
But myself I don't want to be found

You say I am, You say let go
You say believe
But its not that easy for me
You say wait, you say right now
Don't you see you're already one foot in the ground
You say

I've been wicked and wild and wrong
And I've wondered the price of my shame
I've been hiding my face for so long
Its a wonder that you know my name

You say come home, you say I'm here
You say theirs something you just can't control
You say let me, you say believe
Why do you search for the answers you already know
You say

I am the way and the light and the truth
Don't be misled by the flight of your youth
Have faith in the things you can't see to believe
What if you had faith in me?

You say rest here, this is your home
Don't you see that you knew I was here along
You say...