Its easy to look at other people and think they have it all put together. The career, the social life, the romantic life.
Not too long ago I thought I was finally putting things together. I was working hard to one-day advance my career (I have no idea how any of this will pay off in the short-term, but hopefully it will in the long-term) and I have been working hard to get my finances under control. I've also been trying to focus on my band - which I need to devote more time to.
Today, though ... I feel like I don't really have much to feel accomplished about. I feel like I'm working my life away, and its been two long since I felt like I was "living". Not to mention the fact that I associate being happy in life with having enough money to live off of (which I don't...) and having someone to share my life with, which I don't.
I've been spending a lot of time with my best friend, lately, and I am truly grateful for getting to share as many experiences with him as I've been able to. But it does highlight the fact that I don't have a significant other to me, and makes me long for being able to share more with someone than I'm able to with my best friend.
What is my problem? So, to distract myself, I just keep working. Its a viscious cycle.
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hey T-dawg, i feel your honest thoughts here, and i appreciate your sharing them. i certainly feel that way all the time and sometimes friends tell me they "don't know how i do it" meaning how do i work and school, but you know what, we are all heroes because we are young and working hard and spending a lot of time and energy doing it, all the while wondering who we are. so your thoughts hit home and i can empathize. i think you would feel better if you had a constant friend to talk to, be with, have fun with, etc. doesn't have to be a significant other but it certainly can be. you know? not to feel so alone. i am so proud of you though tony. you are really trying to make something great out of your life and because of that, you ARE. and i admire you and wish the burgh wasn't so damn far away because i would visit you!
take care and i promise the next time you come to the east side i won't forget and we will allll hang out. -c dogg
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