Heplessly, Hopelessly

I am still desperately wishing I wasn't alone. Especially with the holidays coming up. I want someone to share them with. Someone to bring home. Someone to come home to, period.

And instead I will have no one to come to. Really - no reason at all to come home for the holidays. I might as well do like I do every year and work through them. Its easier being alone and lonely when you're in a hotel room in some distant city. At least then I can take comfort in the fact that I spent my holiday bringing other people to their loved ones.

This funk needs to end. This rut has stopped me in my tracks for far to long. Where does one begin to figure out how to get out of it? I have no idea.