May and June

Sorry for the lack of updates. I have been very busy. Or, I'd like to think I have been. I continue to seek daily God's love and will in my life. I continue to seek boldly living by faith. I am continuing to come to understand God more each day and his love for me.

I continue to tell myself I must whole-heartedly believe in redemption and grace and mercy. Because those are the only hope's I have for myself. I believe them to be true, and I must live like thats what I believe.

I heard something the other day that I hope will go a long way in my continuing journey of healing. A woman who had been through quite a tragedy, in offering advice to another person in the same shoes, said "Its not always about forgiving yourself. Their comes a time where you just have to accept yourself."

Profound. Perhaps my problem isn't that I haven't forgiven myself. Perhaps it is that I have no accepted myself. This is who I am. That is who I was. I cannot deny it or run from it. I must accept it.

I read something else the other day about Peter. And how he may have wished he could erase the denial of Jesus and forget it ever happened. But that the Holy Spirit calls us to remember it and use it in our dealings with Christ. To use it for His glory.

I must do that, too.